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I seem to be improving tonight – as long as don’t move. I am hopeful to go jogging tomorrow morning and then on to the office.
I have been working on my imagery. There is the thing called the blood-brain barrier. Supposedly things don’t cross the blood-brain barrier. But if the tumors in my brain are from the lung cancer then it has crossed the blood-brain barrier. According to one oncologist, the chemo will also, to a small extent, cross the blood-brain barrier.
I work in imagery where my soldiers are swarming throughout my body exterminating the enemy where ever they find it. To that I have added a scene were they come across a very tiny opening. It is only big enough for a single soldier to slip through. In my model, that is the opening where the cancer crossed the blood-brain barrier. Once they have found it, my soldiers stream through the opening seeking and destroying the enemy where ever they fine him.
In my image, there is not place the enemy can hide.
In fact, if it wasn’t for the effects of the Neulasta, I would be feeling better. The symptoms I felt previous to finding out what I had have abated. My left rib cage continues to improve and some of the pains I previously endured have faded.
I am noticing that some of my processes seem to be slowing down. My fingernails and toenails seem to be growing more slowly. When I shave in the morning, I feel like only about 10 percent of my beard has grown from the previous day. It’s rather a weird feeling.
On thing has concerned me. That is, if the chemotherapy just caused the cancer to go dormant instead of killing it. I guess time will tell.
One of my frustrations is the lack of metrics in tracking my progress. After my next treatment, the oncologist is going to send me for a scan. I really want some hard numbers that I could track on a weekly basis, but such does not seem to be the case.
Posted by The Vorlon at November 13, 2005 6:14 PM