May 9, 2006

My CT Scan Report - Disappointing

I got my CT scan results today and I was disappointing.

The parasite has gone from 19 x 26 mm to 24 x 29 mm. You can read the report by clicking here.

My oncologist called me at the office. When I heard his voice, I knew it was not a social call.

I am still getting treatment tomorrow, but they are changing the chemicals in the hope the parasite will get a surprise from a different direction.

I wonder if the five weeks between one of my cycles gave the parasite enough breathing room to develop some resistance to the toxins we had been feeding it.

I’ll be frank with you. I was pretty bummed by the news. I sort of had a little pity party for myself. I wanted to cry and a part of me wanted to say, “It’s not fair!” But what is, is. I can’t change reality.

I’m feeling somewhat better now, but I am still disappointed.

Posted by The Vorlon at May 9, 2006 6:09 PM
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Dear Ted,

It's not fair - It's not fair - It's not fair!!
Truly a bummer day and I not only felt like crying, I did. My heart is heavy indeed. However, the doctors are going to proceed with a new cocktail and it is being blessed by God I know. I am sharing my strength with you and Karol as you begin a "new day" tomorrow.

Please continue with your vow of strength and your love for God. He will stand with you through the darkness and carry you into the light. Let us all continue our prayers for you in a big way. May God Bless You Ted. Most sincerely, Dave & Ruth Berlien

Posted by: Ruth Berlien at May 9, 2006 11:09 PM

Ted,

You're not finished fighting and we're finished praying.

Posted by: Reb Orrell at May 10, 2006 10:21 AM