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I loaded a program to post my flowers on the blog but as you can see, I have failed. There is so much I wish Ted had taught me or I had paid better attention.
I had my usual walks with Danny. I took Dasher 1 to the car wash and got a good cleaning for it. It took some photos and will load them on the computer. I made a For Sale sign to put on it. I will go onto Craigslist.com and see if I can figure out how to place my ad and post my photos. I hope I have better luck than I did with my Flower Blog.
I sometimes go back and read Ted’s early blogs before he got sick. It seems so impossible that this all happened to him. I miss him so much and I need him. Summer is coming. I’ve been having a craving for a Strawberry Blizzard or Artic Swirl. I don’t know if I can eat one again without bursting into tears. Ted and I would get the Strawberry Blizzard at the Dairy Queen in Ocean City or we would get the Strawberry Artic Swirl at Del’s Custard on Main Road. We did everything together so everything reminds me of him.
I looked up on the internet and printed out some forms on dissolving the company. It is all so complicated. I have so much to do. It all seems so horrendous. I’ll work on it next week.
I’m watching Stargate. The final 10 episodes start tonight. Danny will be down soon for his nighttime walk,
News from the Vorlon Wife.
Hi Karol,
After reading your last entry about not knowing how to post your flower pictures and the fun you shared with Ted eating your Dairy Queen delights,I think from what I've learned from others, such as you, they never feel they've had enough of "anything" to actually say goodbye to someone who is loved so well. As I said, I can only imagine your pain, but I certainly feel your pain and so wish you didn't have to face any of it. It would be lovely if nothing had ever changed, but again, you must give yourself so much credit for continuing to pursue the challenges that you must meet everyday. It's such small consolation to know that we're all so proud of you and so wish you could go back to yours and Ted's days of sharing wonderful joys together. I guess there must be a great master plan that only God knows Karol. You will be okay. I suppose that if God and Ted felt confident you could bear this heavy load you can. However, not without many many questions and some anger about the whys of such a thing happening to the two of you. That is something that is elusive for us mortal creatures. Our faith must be powerful, but, that's so much easier said than done. God understands that and He will provide I understand that too Karol my dear.
May you be blessed with continued strength. You can do this Karol. Ted knew you could do this too. He surely hated to leave you, but, he did have the blessed peace of knowing you would prevail over the loss of him at some point down the road. You're being watched over as God promises us. I know your skies will be cloudy even on a sunny day for awhile. Again, Karol, you are facing "firsts" with the new season. You've always shared together the joy of warmth in the spring, your gorgeous flowers, your delicious Dairy Queen delights, working in the earth, trimming shrubs, etc. I have a feeling Ted is up there advising you as to how to work the shrub trimmer without cutting the cord. He loved that one.
Just keep telling us about your honest feelings and maybe it will help just a tiny bit. You should think of writing a book about this type of pain. Your feelings are so vividly shared. Enough to make me cry for you Karol. Never having met you hasn't kept me from caring so much for you, just as I cared for Ted. Praying for a lighter load for you each day. Love, Ruth
Posted by: Ruth at April 14, 2007 3:22 PMKarol,
Give me a call today (Sunday) and I'll try to walk you through the process of putting a photo into your blog entry.
Posted by: Reb Orrell at April 15, 2007 7:38 AM