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I awoke to a noise and thought the wind was blowing the shingles off the roof. I looked out the window and it was all white with snow. I don’t know what the noise was. The shingles were covered with snow. Danny stayed in bed until 8am. I took him out but he did not want to go. A lady came by with her dog and distracted him. I took him back into the house until they passed by. I took him out to the tree and he went. When he got back in I dried him off with a towel. He thinks I’m playing with him; He tries to grab the towel and run off with it.
He sits on my lap with a blanket over him. He no sooner gets dry when it’s time to go out again. Fortunately, the rain let up a bit so we could go for a walk and he could do his business.
I wrote some thank you notes for some people whose addresses I just received. I still have a couple more to do. It seems like little jobs take a lot out of me.
I wonder about what my purpose is now and what I should do. Ted and I did everything together. We worked together and we were home together. We did almost everything together. It’s hard to imagine what I will do with out him. My friend who lost his wife nearly 2 years ago said these feelings are normal. It will get easier.
My friend’s son called. He came home from college to look at Ted’s car. He wants to see it tomorrow. He is a very nice young man. I hope he likes the car. I would feel good about him having it.
My brother called. We are going to watch my cousin perform at Sam’s. It is Italian Night and Scott sings several songs in Italian. He’s Irish. There will be some other performers there, too. My Aunt was going to go with us but has changed her mind. Don didn’t know why. I’ll have to give her a call and find out.
Perhaps tomorrow, I’ll try to post another photo. I need to practice so I don’t forget how to do it. I have taken plenty of flower photos.
News from the Vorlon Wife.
Posted by The Vorlon at April 16, 2007 8:43 PMHi Karol, Dasher 1 is a beautiful sight. It should sell quickly. Hope the young man that is in college is able to buy it. It looks as though it would serve anyone very well. And, you'll have the peace of mind knowing it will continue to be loved and cared for if he's able to get it. We'll hope all goes well.
As to how you'll continue your life without Ted at your side. Keep putting one foot in front of the other each day (as you're already so beautifully doing). As the man who lost his wife a couple of years ago said, your feelings are pretty "right on" at this time, and he said it will become easier. I am a firm believer that time is your good friend now and time is what will begin to heal your salt-infested wounds. Just as you did when you were caring for Ted during his illness, you took each day as it was handed to you and you probably even amazed yourself sometimes. You're a strong and God-Loving woman. Trust that he will see you through and provide for you even in your weakest moments. You are a proven case of a woman with grace and courage to handle life's most painful of situations. Of this there is no doubt.
Smile when you can, sing when you are able, greet someone with a smile that looks like they could use your smile, have one small laugh each day, even if its at yourself (we all do some pretty corny things each day if we think about it), treasure your freedom, say "I love you" to someone that would least expect to hear those words from you, your aunt, or an uncle, cousin or niece or nephew. They will undoubtedly return the feeling most graciously to you. And, that always feels so good. You are loved and cared for by many. Lap it up and just keep taking nice firm baby steps each morning.
And, to start it all off, here's a hug from me. Can you feel it? Your friend, Ruth
Posted by: Ruth at April 17, 2007 1:25 PMThanks Ruth. I feel the hug and the support you give me.
Karol
Posted by: Karol at April 18, 2007 8:51 PM